I claim to know what love is
What it feels like to need another person
Like your next breath
Like oxygen
The very substance we need to survive
But…
Do I truly know?
Do I know how it feels to have someone who
I can’t be without?
My first experience was a lie.
One falsehood
One fallacy after another.
“You complete me.”
No I don’t.
“We’re gonna be married in the future.”
No we won’t.
“I’ve never felt this way about someone before.”
I guess me neither.
“You’re the best thing that ever happened to me.”
No I wasn’t.
You were the worst thing that happened to me.
So maybe my claim to know love is…
A falsehood
A fallacy.
The love I know breaks you down
Tears you in two
Takes over your everything…
Then leaves you broken.
The tattered remains of one who once was
The love I know only takes but never gives
It leaves you empty
A black hole
Void of existence
Just a being
Grasping onto anything
In a poor attempt to survive.
So maybe I should say I have an idea of what love should look like
Because…
Turns out I don’t know.
The only love I know
HURTS
It hurts like hell
It’s full of tears
Tears cried alone in the middle of the night
Pleas to God to make it work.
What am I doing wrong?
Why doesn’t he love me like I love him?
Love shouldn’t hurt…
Love should be honest
Not full of falsehoods and fallacies
Not full of empty promises whispered when no one can hear
Maybe I can only talk about what love is not
Love is not waiting on a phone call that never comes
A date that is always broken
Love doesn’t say she’s just a friend when we both know she’s more
Love doesn’t le
Because love is pure
“Love is patient, love is kind…It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails…”
Your love broke all the rules
You weren’t patient or kind
There was never any hope
Your love failed
It did not persevere
Turns out I have no idea how loves feels
Not from the one who claims to have those feels.
The only thing I know is
Falsehoods and fallacies
A story full of lies that I once believed
When Words Are Just Enough 